I drank a bunch of cheap whiskey last night. That is really the first time I’ve gotten drunk since New Years Eve and I told myself I was really over drinking then but last night it was handed to me and I was out so I accepted. Today I feel like shit, have a headache from a hangover mixed with bashing it in to something last night, and my left knee feels like it’s broken. I didn’t enjoy being drunk at all and I didn’t enjoy the aftermath. I don’t know what has changed to make me hate drinking so much all of a sudden. Up until New Years I’d been drinking like a fish since I graduated high school and overnight I just started to fucking hate it. I think it may be liquor. Also I think Vyvanse has something to do with it too. This is a mystery to me because I have always been one to want to party or hang out and get drunk. I think I still would enjoy mimosas and wine and nice beers. Maybe it’s just the cheap shit getting me. Or maybe since I’ve started smoking more often I’ve found something I enjoy way more. Another thing is that I forget to take my bedtime meds when I’m wasted and that makes me feel like I’m dying the next day as well so that on top of drinking may be what’s making it seem like it’s suddenly the last thing I want. Drinking less or not at all will only benefit me though so I’m not complaining, I’m just kind of shocked. Vyvanse plus not drinking has got me losing weight quickly and that I also can’t complain about. I’m probably gonna keep experimenting with this to figure it out.